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　biology　class。　She　must　have　wondered；　after　seeing　my　expression；　whether　she　were　the　cause。　A　normal　girl　would　have　asked　around；　pared　her　experience　to　others；　looked　for　mon　ground　that　would　explain　my　behavior　so　she　didn　t　feel　singled　out。　Humans　were　constantly　desperate　to　feel　normal；　to　fit　in。　To　blend　in　with　everyone　else　around　them；　like　a　featureless　flock　of　sheep。　The　need　was　particularly　strong　during　the　insecure　adolescent　years。　This　girl　would　be　no　exception　to　that　rule。　But　no　one　at　all　took　any　notice　of　us　sitting　here；　at　our　normal　table。　Bella　must　be　exceptionally　shy；　if　she　d　confided　in　no　one。　Perhaps　she　had　spoken　to　I　think　you　re　right。

her　father；　maybe　that　was　the　strongest　relationship　though　that　seemed　unlikely；　given　the　fact　that　she　had　spent　so　little　time　with　him　throughout　her　life。　She　would　be　closer　to　her　mother。　Still；　I　would　have　to　pass　by　Chief　Swan　sometime　soon　and　listen　to　what　he　was　thinking。　Anything　new？　Jasper　asked。　Nothing。　She　must　not　have　said　anything。　All　of　them　raised　an　eyebrow　at　this　news。　Maybe　you　re　not　as　scary　as　you　think　you　are；　Emmett　said；　chuckling。　I　could　have　frightened　her　better　than　that。　I　rolled　my　eyes　at　him。　Wonder　why　？　silence。　He　puzzled　again　over　my　revelation　about　the　girl　s　unique　I　don　t　know。　I　felt　my　body　go　rigid。　Try　to　look　I　bet　We　ve　been　over　that。　She　s　ing　in；　Alice　murmured　then。　human。　Human；　you　say？　Emmett　asked。　He　held　up　his　right　fist；　twisting　his　fingers　to　reveal　the　snowball　he　d　saved　in　his　palm。　Of　course　it　had　not　melted　there。　He　d　squeezed　it　into　a　lumpy　block　of　ice。　He　had　his　eyes　on　Jasper；　but　I　saw　the　direction　of　his　thoughts。　So　did　Alice；　of　course。　When　he　abruptly　hurled　the　ice　chunk　at　her；　she　flicked　it　away　with　a　casual　flutter　of　her　fingers。　The　ice　ricocheted　across　the　length　of　the　cafeteria；　too　fast　to　be　visible　to　human　eyes；　and　shattered　with　a　sharp　crack　against　the　brick　wall。　The　brick　cracked；　too。　The　heads　in　that　corner　of　the　room　all　turned　to　stare　at　the　pile　of　broken　ice　on　the　floor；　and　then　swiveled　to　find　the　culprit。　They　didn　t　look　further　than　a　few　tables　away。　No　one　looked　at　us。　Very　human；　Emmett；　Rosalie　said　scathingly。　wall　while　you　re　at　it？　Why　don　t　you　punch　through　the　It　would　look　more　impressive　if　you　did　it；　baby。　I　tried　to　pay　attention　to　them；　keeping　a　grin　fixed　on　my　face　like　I　was　part　of　their　banter。　I　did　not　allow　myself　to　look　toward　the　line　where　I　knew　she　was　standing。　But　that　was　all　that　I　was　listening　to。　I　could　hear　Jessica　s　impatience　with　the　new　girl；　who　seemed　to　be　distracted；　too；　standing　motionless　in　the　moving　line。　I　saw；　in　Jessica　s　thoughts；　that　Bella　Swan　s　cheeks　were　once　more　colored　bright　pink　with　blood。　I　pulled　in　short；　shallow　breaths；　ready　to　quit　breathing　if　any　hint　of　her　scent　touched　the　air　near　me。　Mike　Newton　was　with　the　two　girls。　I　heard　both　his　voices；　mental　and　verbal；　when　he　asked　Jessica　what　was　wrong　with　the　Swan　girl。　I　didn　t　like　the　way　his　thoughts　wrapped　around　her；　the　flicker　of　already　established　fantasies　that　clouded　his　mind　while　he　watched　her　start　and　look　up　from　her　reverie　like

she　d　forgotten　he　was　there。　Nothing；　I　heard　Bella　say　in　that　quiet；　clear　voice。　It　seemed　to　ring　like　a　bell　over　the　babble　in　the　cafeteria；　but　I　knew　that　was　just　because　I　was　listening　for　it　so　intently。　I　ll　just　get　a　soda　today；　she　continued　as　she　moved　to　catch　up　with　the　line。　I　couldn　t　help　flickering　one　glance　in　her　direction。　She　was　staring　at　the　floor；　the　blood　slowly　fading　from　her　face。　I　looked　away　quickly；　to　Emmett；　who　laughed　at　the　now　painedlooking　smile　on　my　face。　You　look　sick；　bro。　I　rearranged　my　features　so　the　expression　would　seem　casual　and　effortless。　Jessica　was　wondering　aloud　about　the　girl　s　lack　of　appetite。　hungry？　Actually；　I　feel　a　little　sick。　Aren　t　you　Her　voice　was　lower；　but　still　very　clear。　Why　did　it　bother　me；　the　protective　concern　that　suddenly　emanated　from　Mike　Newton　s　thoughts？　What　did　it　matter　that　there　was　a　possessive　edge　to　them？　It　wasn　t　my　business　if　Mike　Newton　felt　unnecessarily　anxious　for　her。　Perhaps　this　was　the　way　everyone　responded　to　her。　Hadn　t　I　wanted；　instinctively；　to　protect　her；　too？　Before　I　d　wanted　to　kill　her；　that　is　But　was　the　girl　ill？　It　was　hard　to　judge　she　looked　so　delicate　with　her　translucent　skin　Then　I　realized　that　I　was　worrying；　too；　just　like　that　dimwitted　boy；　and　I　forced　myself　not　to　think　about　her　health。　Regardless；　I　didn　t　like　monitoring　her　through　Mike　s　thoughts。　I　switched　to　Jessica　s；　watching　carefully　as　the　three　of　them　chose　which　table　to　sit　at。　Fortunately；　they　sat　with　Jessica　s　usual　panions；　at　one　of　the　first　tables　in　the　room。　Not　downwind；　just　as　Alice　had　promised。　Alice　elbowed　me。　She　s　going　to　look　soon；　act　human。　I　clenched　my　teeth　behind　my　grin。　Ease　up；　Edward；　Emmett　said。　the　end　of　the　world。　You　would　know；　I　murmured。　Emmett　laughed。　You　ve　got　to　learn　to　get　over　things。　a　long　time　to　wallow　in　guilt。　Like　I　do。　Eternity　is　Honestly。　So　you　kill　one　human。　That　s　hardly　Just　then；　Alice　tossed　a　smaller　handful　of　ice　that　she　d　been　hiding　into　Emmett　s　unsuspecting　face。

He　blinked；　surprised；　and　then　grinned　in　anticipation。　You　asked　for　it；　he　said　as　he　leaned　across　the　table　and　shook　his　iceencrusted　hair　in　her　direction。　The　snow；　melting　in　the　warm　room；　flew　out　from　his　hair　in　a　thick　shower　of　halfliquid；　halfice。　Ew！　Rose　plained；　as　she　and　Alice　recoiled　from　the　deluge。　Alice　laughed；　and　we　all　joined　in。　I　could　see　in　Alice　s　head　how　she　d　orchestrated　this　perfect　moment；　and　I　knew　that　the　girl　I　should　stop　thinking　of　her　that　way；　as　if　she　were　the　only　girl　in　the　world　that　Bella　would　be　watching　us　laugh　and　play；　looking　as　happy　and　human　and　unrealistically　ideal　as　a　Norman　Rockwell　painting。　Alice　kept　laughing；　and　held　her　tray　up　as　a　shield。　be　staring　at　us。　The　girl　Bella　must　still　staring　at　the　Cullens　again；　someone　thought；　catching　my　attention。　I　looked　automatically　toward　the　unintentional　call；　realizing　as　my　eyes　found　their　destination　that　I　recognized　the　voice　I　d　been　listening　to　it　so　much　today。　But　my　eyes　slid　right　past　Jessica；　and　focused　on　the　girl　s　perating　gaze。　She　looked　down　quickly；　hiding　behind　her　thick　hair　again。　What　was　she　thinking？　The　frustration　seemed　to　be　getting　more　acute　as　time　went　on；　rather　than　dulling。　I　tried　uncertain　in　what　I　was　doing　for　I　d　never　tried　this　before　to　probe　with　my　mind　at　the　silence　around　her。　My　extra　hearing　had　always　e　to　me　naturally；　without　asking；　I　d　never　had　to　work　at　it。　But　I　concentrated　now；　trying　to　break　through　whatever　shield　surrounded　her。　Nothing　but　silence。　What　is　it　about　her？　Jessica　thought；　echoing　my　own　frustration。　Edward　Cullen　is　staring　at　you；　she　whispered　in　the　Swan　girl　s　ear；　adding　a　giggle。　There　was　no　hint　of　her　jealous　irritation　in　her　tone。　Jessica　seemed　to　be　skilled　at　feigning　friendship。　I　listened；　too　engrossed；　to　the　girl　s　response。　He　doesn　t　look　angry；　does　he？　she　whispered　back。　So　she　had　noticed　my　wild　reaction　last　week。　Of　course　she　had。　The　question　confused　Jessica。　I　saw　my　own　face　in　her　thoughts　as　she　checked　my　expression；　but　I　did　not　meet　her　glance。　I　was　still　concentrating　on　the　girl；　trying　to　hear　something。　My　intent　focus　didn　t　seem　to　be　helping　at　all。　No；　Jess　told　her；　and　I　knew　that　she　wished　she　could　say　yes　how　it　rankled　inside　her；　my　staring　though　there　was　no　trace　of　that　in　her　voice。　Should　he　be？　I　don　t　think　he　likes　me；　the　girl　whispered　back；　laying　her　head　down　on　her　arm　as　if　she　were　suddenly　tired。　I　tried　to　understand　the　motion；　but　I　could

only　make　guesses。　Maybe　she　was　tired。　The　Cullens　don　t　like　anybody；　Jess　reassured　her。　Well；　they　don　t　notice　anybody　enough　to　like　them。　They　never　used　to。　Her　thought　was　a　grumble　of　plaint。　But　he　s　still　staring　at　you。　Stop　looking　at　him；　the　girl　said　anxiously；　lifting　her　head　from　her　arm　to　make　sure　Jessica　obeyed　the　order。　Jessica　giggled；　but　did　as　she　was　asked。　The　girl　did　not　look　away　from　her　table　for　the　rest　of　the　hour。　I　thought　though；　of　course；　I　could　not　be　sure　that　this　was　deliberate。　It　seemed　like　she　wanted　to　look　at　me。　Her　body　would　shift　slightly　in　my　direction；　her　chin　would　begin　to　turn；　and　then　she　would　catch　herself；　take　a　deep　breath；　and　stare　fixedly　at　whoever　was　speaking。　I　ignored　the　other　thoughts　around　the　girl　for　the　most　part；　as　they　were　not；　momentarily；　about　her。　Mike　Newton　was　planning　a　snow　fight　in　the　parking　lot　after　school；　not　seeming　to　realize　that　the　snow　had　already　shifted　to　rain。　The　flutter　of　soft　flakes　against　the　roof　had　bee　the　more　mon　patter　of　raindrops。　Could　he　really　not　hear　the　change？　It　seemed　loud　to　me。　When　the　lunch　period　ended；　I　stayed　in　my　seat。　The　humans　filed　out；　and　I　caught　myself　trying　to　distinguish　the　sound　of　her　footsteps　from　the　sound　of　the　rest；　as　if　there　was　something　important　or　unusual　about　them。　How　stupid。　My　family　made　no　move　to　leave；　either。　They　waited　to　see　what　I　would　do。　Would　I　go　to　class；　sit　beside　the　girl　where　I　could　smell　the　absurdly　potent　scent　of　her　blood　and　feel　the　warmth　of　her　pulse　in　the　air　on　my　skin？　Was　I　strong　enough　for　that？　Or　had　I　had　enough　for　one　day？　I　think　it　s　okay；　Alice　said；　hesitant。　make　it　through　the　hour。　Your　mind　is　set。　I　think　you　ll　But　Alice　knew　well　how　quickly　a　mind　could　change。　Why　push　it；　Edward？　Jasper　asked。　Though　he　didn　t　want　to　feel　smug　that　I　was　the　one　who　was　weak　now；　I　could　hear　that　he　did；　just　a　little。　Go　home。　Take　it　slow。　What　s　the　big　deal？　Emmett　disagreed。　Either　he　will　or　he　won　t　kill　her。　Might　as　well　get　it　over　with；　either　way。　I　don　t　want　to　move　yet；　Rosalie　plained。　I　don　t　want　to　start　over。　We　re　almost　out　of　high　school；　Emmett。　Finally。　I　was　evenly　torn　on　the　decision。　I　wanted；　wanted　badly；　to　face　this　head　on　rather　than　running　away　again。　But　I　didn　t　want　to　push　myself　too　far；　either。　It　had　been　a　mistake　last　week　for　Jasper　to　go　so　long　without　hunting；　was　this　just　as　pointless　a　mistake？　I　didn　t　want　to　uproot　my　family。　None　of　them　would　thank　me　for　that。　I　realized　that　I　wanted　to　see　her　face　But　I　wanted　to　go　to　my　biology　class。　again。

That　s　what　decided　it　for　me。　That　curiosity。　I　was　angry　with　myself　for　feeling　it。　Hadn　t　I　promised　myself　that　I　wouldn　t　let　the　silence　of　the　girl　s　mind　make　me　unduly　interested　in　her？　And　yet；　here　I　was；　most　unduly　interested。　I　wanted　to　know　what　she　was　thinking。　Her　mind　was　closed；　but　her　eyes　were　very　open。　Perhaps　I　could　read　them　instead。　No；　Rose；　I　think　it　really　will　be　okay；　Alice　said。　It　s　firming　up。　I　m　niythree　percent　sure　that　nothing　bad　will　happen　if　he　goes　to　class。　She　looked　at　me　inquisitively；　wondering　what　had　changed　in　my　thoughts　that　made　her　vision　of　the　future　more　secure。　Would　curiosity　be　enough　to　keep　Bella　Swan　alive？　Emmett　was　right；　though　why　not　get　it　over　with；　either　way？　temptation